Random Thoughts

Was having a random thought like this out of a sudden. I’m sitting in my room, almost doing nothing except to listening to songs and watching anime. And I realized, I am actually alone. And the thought hit me that, we are always alone even though we have friends or parents or whatever. Like me, living like this waiting for my frens to call me thinking that they might not call me cause, they are still sleeping at 9.48pm. They didn’t sleep at all last night. Crazy fellas.


Anyway, I thought of the importance of being independent. Of really being independent when everything u know or have is gone from your life, you still need to live. Not for anyone else, not for your true love, not for your parents but for yourself. This is what you owe to yourself of suffering the hardships of studies, work, love and so on. You have to reward yourself by staying alive, even though you have to be alone, you will slowly understand how beautiful life is. Even though you might think that life sucks, assignment sucks and whatever, life is actually beautiful. Your heart is beating and you are actually breathing air in. Staying alive is actually a reward for your soul or your spirit. So cherish it, cherish life, don’t do stupid things like jumping off a building and other things which is classified as committing suicide. Am thinking about such things after what I heard about Nick who committed suicide. Din’t really know him, although I was introduced to him through Patrick. And after what Allen was telling me the other day about how hard its gonna be for him this semester with his deferred papers and having to take summer, he mentioned that if he didn’t get through, he will jump. I frowned. I thought for a while and realized that the most that he will have to extend if he didn’t do well in his deferred papers, he will have to extend just another semester. That isn’t too bad, look at me, I have to extend 1 more semester also. My total extensions are 1 year and 1 semester. And I have never ever thought of even committing suicide. He complained he is financially tight. Hmmm… anyone who has ever seen him or knows him will prolly know how much modifications he made to his car and he complained that he is financially tight. Ironic? Lol…. Patrick will know what I mean. I just wanna tell Allen to not think like that, have a positive mindset, study hard or mebbe study hard with me and lets get through our studies at the same time. The way he carries himself makes it hard for people to like him and I kinda understand. Im not saying that I don’t like him or what not, but he is my friend and i’m always there for my friends. I just hope he will realize his own bad attitude and change. But I know its kinda impossible. I just hope and wish the best for him like how I wish to all my friends. And, I mean everyone… will put a list here….

1. Vee Liam
2. Wai Yeong
3. Chee How
4. Patrick
5. Jennifer
6. Evelyn (even though u don’t treat me as one, I do)
7. Sofian
8. Swee Sin
9. Stephen Pang
10. Adeline Shuang [just got to know you, but still :)]
11. Aaron Chan
12. Allen
13. Tony
14. Anna
15. Mei How
16. Gwen
17. Sham
18. An Liang
19. Shu-Fenn
20. Kok Wee
21. Elaine
That’s all I can think of…. Wish these people well in whatever they do. The numbering doesn’t mean anything. =)

Over you-Chris Daughtry

Finally i can post this with proudness, pat shud be relieved as well.. haha

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of meeee

[Chorus]
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know

I’m slowly getting closureI guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for meee

[Chorus]
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you knowI’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really overI’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get throughI got over you!!!
I never saw it coming I should have started running a long, long time agooo
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
And I never saw it coming I should have started running

I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!And I got over you!!!And I got over you!!!
The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you…

Nice love story

Saw tis in one of my fren's blogs and it was quite nice... so decided to plagiarise a bit



A love story about SALTY COFFEE
He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her,while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him.At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she wassurprised, but due to being polite, she promised.They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she feltuncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked thewaiter. 'would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in mycoffee.'Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still, he putthe salt in his coffee and drank it.She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby?He replied: 'when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I likeplaying in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the tasteof the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always thinkof my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss myparents who are still living there'.While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched.That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart.A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home,cares about home, has responsibility of home.Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, herchildhood, her family.That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets allher demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was sucha good person but she almost missed him!Thanks to his salty coffee!Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princessmarried to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And, everytime she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee e, as she knewthat's the way he liked it.After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: 'My dearest,please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I saidto you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was sonervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It washard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought that could be thestart of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in mylife, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to youfor anything.. Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: Idon't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had thesalty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry foranything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for mywhole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you andhave you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffeeagain'.Her tears made the letter totally wet.Someday, someone asked her: what's thetaste of salty coffee?It's sweet. She replied.Love isNot 2 forget but 2 forgive,Not 2 c but 2 understand,Not 2 hear but 2 listen,Not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one youlike will leave you for the one they love.Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.Who calls you back when you hang up on him.Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.Who holds your hand in front of his friends.Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares aboutyou and how lucky he is to have you.Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's her.'

Devil May Cry gameplay videos

For those who never tried this game, or played it but seemed bored... well i'll give u one good reason why i say its a superb game. Check this out

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After all this time, ever since the 14th of May, i haven't really talked to her. I haven't seen her and talked to her face to face, haven't done the usual things i do with her. I was hurt then, yes, and i got angry about it. When it was so close to finals, i just forgot about all that shit and just started concentrating on what i had to do, what i had to go through. During those times, yea, i found that i managed to not think about it too much. But for now, i don't know why, since exams are over and i didn't really had much to think about and worry about, except the results of my exams, i am feeling it again. I miss those times when we used to hang out and crack jokes about situations and stuff. Even though i wasn't in a relationship with her, we were friends. That was the best part and i realised that you don't need to be in a relationship with the someone you like in order to be happy and satisfied. Being good friends with her was also a good thing. I could see her smile, how happy she were and how sad she was at times and just being with her to not make her feel alone and stuff. At that time, all i could think of was whether i had a chance with her or not. I feel like an idiot. Back then i didn't know it, but after thinking about it through and how she was friends with my other pals, then i only realised how she was thinking about me at that time. Can't believe i was so stupid as to take it as a sign, or a green light that its something good for me. Yes, its good, but not in the way that i wanted it to be.

Now, I miss her, miss those times and wish it could go back the way it used to be. Damn, i'm an idiot...

(hope u're happy wherever u are n whatever u do)

OST- Kamen Rider Kiva

One of the first few theme songs of a kamen rider series i really liked... me and patrick keeps dancing to this... lol

Finally, its over!

Finally exams are over! Woot! But its not the end of everything yet. Sighs... one more semester to go if everything this sem goes well. Kinda afraid for two subjects.... e-biz and genetics of development. Can't say i did really well for the assignments for e-biz and i need a high score to pass. Its possible, but as of now, i'm not too sure. As for genetics of development, i got quite good internals, 32/50. Need another 18 marks to pass, but as for how i did the final paper for that, i'm not too sure already. It really sucked. Genetics has been my worst subject and i cannot stand studying flies, worms and robins....=p

Now looking forward to going out with friends and hanging out, but dreading the date when results will be out. Sigh, hopefully everything will be fine. Pray for me.... =)